“Because,” he says quietly, “if I had told you, you would have run.”
You let out a laugh that doesn’t sound like laughter at all. It sounds like glass under a shoe.
“So you lied instead.”
His jaw tightens. “I waited.”
“You hid it.”
“I was trying to find the right moment.”
“You married me first.”
That lands between you like a blade.
Outside, a motorcycle growls down the street, then fades. Somewhere in the building, somebody laughs at a television show. Life goes on with obscene confidence while your marriage starts cracking open before it has even survived one night.
You rise from the bed so quickly your veil, still pinned low in your hair, catches on the blanket and tears free. The tiny pearls scatter across the floorboards with delicate, stupid sounds. You stand there in your high-necked dress, breathing hard, suddenly aware of every inch of fabric against your scarred skin.
“You saw me,” you say. “You looked at my face, my neck, my arms… and you said nothing.”
His voice is soft. “I saw you before that.”
The room stills.
You feel it before you understand it, the slight shift in the air when a truth turns from frightening to poisonous.
“What do you mean?”
He looks at you fully now. His eyes, once clouded and unfocused, had seemed miraculous enough when you thought they were only trying to follow sound and shadow. Tonight they look different. Sharper. They are not the eyes of a man learning the world. They are the eyes of a man who has been studying you for a long time.
“I knew you before the music school,” he says.
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