But a terrible curiosity has opened inside you, one of those trapdoors the mind steps onto even while screaming not to. It is curiosity, not forgiveness, that makes you say, “Then tell me everything.”
He draws in a long breath.
“Three years ago,” he begins, “before the surgery, before the school, before you knew my name… I heard about a fire.”
Your stomach drops.
You had spent years making the explosion into a short story because short stories are easier to survive. There had been a defective gas line in the bakery kitchen where you worked weekends while studying nursing. There had been the smell, then the spark, then the wall of heat. There had been pain so total it erased language. When people asked later, you gave them the clean version. A gas leak. An accident. I was unlucky. God spared me.
But he is not telling the clean version. You hear it in his voice.
“My cousin Chika worked at the newspaper,” he says. “She was doing a piece on hospital negligence and kitchen safety violations in low-income districts. She came to visit me one evening with notes she wanted read aloud because her eyes were exhausted. I was still blind then, but I listened while she talked. She mentioned a young woman burned in an explosion at San Judas Bakery. She said the owner had paid the inspector to ignore repeated complaints.”
You swallow hard.
He keeps going, almost as if he knows that if he stops, you’ll bolt.
“She was angry because the story was getting buried. The bakery owner had relatives on the city council. There were photos in the file. She described one of them to me. A hospital hallway. A young woman sitting alone. Gauze around her neck. Her mother asleep beside her in a plastic chair. And in the woman’s lap was a workbook. She said even then, with her hands bandaged, that woman was trying to study.”
Your throat closes.
It had been your anatomy workbook.
