Where had responsibility been when I worked overnight stocking shelves and then went to morning classes half-awake because nobody was paying my way?
Where had responsibility been when I signed loan papers alone?
I exhaled slowly.
“I don’t think I will.”
Silence.
The kind of silence that follows a plate breaking.
“What?”
“I said I don’t think I will.”
For a second, I could hear only his breathing.
Then the explosion came.
“You selfish little—”
I hung up.
He called back immediately.
I let it ring.
Jake tried next.
I let that ring too.
Then my mother.
I watched her name glow on the screen and considered ignoring it.
Then I answered because I already knew how this would go, and for the first time, I wanted to hear myself refuse.
“Ryan,” she said softly. Too softly. “We need to talk.”
“Do we?”
She sighed like I was being difficult at a restaurant. “I know you’re upset.”
“Do you?”
“We all know the party didn’t go how you wanted.”
I looked out the window at the brick wall of the building next door.