This morning, I received a letter from the rehabilitation center where Mark was staying.
I stood on the balcony, the wind playing with my hair. In my hand was the thick envelope. It probably contained apologies, promises, or perhaps accusations. I didn’t know, and I didn’t want to know.
I flicked open my Zippo lighter. The blue flame danced in the wind.
I touched the corner of the envelope to the flame. The paper caught fire quickly, curling into black ash. I watched the words—perhaps his last desperate attempt to reach me—turn into smoke and drift into the void.
I didn’t feel gloating satisfaction. I didn’t feel anger. I just felt a profound, absolute indifference. Indifference is the cruelest revenge.
I turned around and walked back inside, where Leo was reaching up, asking to be held.
“Your father said you weren’t his,” I whispered, kissing his forehead which smelled of milk and innocence. “He was right. You aren’t ‘his’ to own, or ‘mine’ to possess. You are your own person. And so am I.”
I picked him up and caught my reflection in the large hallway mirror. The woman in the glass no longer had the puffy eyes and terrified expression of six months ago. She stood tall, her gaze steady and full of life.
I used to think my world had collapsed when Mark’s knees hit the floor that day. But now I understood—that wasn’t the sound of collapse. That was the sound of chains breaking.
The old life was over. My real life was just beginning.
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